I never thought I’d be one to need a little unplugging. I love the internets. I love the Twitter. And though I’m mostly a silent observer, an occasional dole-r out of the quiet “Like”, I do mostly enjoy The Facebook. (But seriously, do y’all remember when it really was called The Facebook?) But there comes a time when you just need to let it go. And that time for me has been the past month.
I didn’t do it on purpose. I didn’t set out with the thought of disconnecting myself from the virtual world or taking a break from technology, it just kind of happened. One day I was checking Twitter every 5 minutes and constantly posting pictures of my dogs or my coffee on Instagram, and the next I realized I had over 200 unread posts in my blog reader. It’s not that I consciously stopped caring about these things, I just needed a break. I needed a break from caring about how many Twitter followers I have. I needed a break from wondering why my blog posts weren’t receiving any comments. I needed a break to realize that my online “life” isn’t my real life but only part of it. I needed time to realize that for me blogging is an outlet and a hobby. Something to be enjoyed and invested in. And while it’s always fun to log on and realize that OMG-like-thirty-whole-people-read-my-post-today 😉 , that’s not what it’s about for me. I thought it was. For a while I got into the mindset that if my blog wasn’t “growing” or making money than it was worthless. And that’s just not true. My blog is for me and is whatever I want it to be. (Yes, I am feeling a little melodramatic tonight, thank you for asking.
So this year I’m just going to do me. On the blog, in real life. I’m going to invest time in the things that I enjoy and that make me happy and not worry about what I think people might think I “should” be doing. I’m going to let go of what I think other people’s expectations might be and worry about the expectations I have for myself. Ok, this is getting a little deep even for me. But how do you come back from a month-long absence if not with a late night, tea-sodden, slightly dramatic blog post?